Where am I now...

The last time I posted, I was waiting results from our blood test at our Fertility Clinic. Well… it was positive!!! I sit here exactly 9 months and 1 day later, and next to me, my five day old SON, lies on my husband’s lap.

I honestly struggle to believe that this amazing little man is ours. We made him (with a little help). He is absolutely perfect!
 

Let me backtrack… I received a call later during the day on the 22 of May, 2013. The lovely nurse gave me the news we had been dying to hear. I was pregnant! After over a year of waiting and crushing disappointment, after tens of thousands of dollars of testing and treatments, after 2 gruelling IVF cycles, after so many tears and “why us’s”, we had finally achieved our dream of starting a family together. When you wait so long for something, you start to wonder if it will ever happen. And then when it does, you keep expecting it to get taken away. After all, you’re used to constant disappointments.
 

At 7 weeks and 2 days pregnant, we saw and heard our baby’s beautiful little heartbeat. My husband had tears in his eyes and I was just in disbelief. It was really happening! At 8 weeks and 3 days, we saw our baby again at our first Obstetrician visit. It officially started feeling real.
 

Now fast forward back to today, after everything we’ve been through, I can officially say that our son was worth the wait!!! All this time, we were just waiting for this particular little boy. He is absolutely perfect and I cannot put in to words all the emotions that come over me when I think about him and look at him. I never thought we would get to experience this and it is even better than I could have imagined. I have cried so much over the last 5 days, tears of happiness that is. I feel like the absolute luckiest person in the whole wide world. To my husband and I, this is everything we’ve been dreaming of. All our dreams have come true.
 

I’ll never forget the struggle it was for us to get here. It definitely made us different people. More patient, more appreciative of the simple things in life, more accepting of things we can’t change. But the pain of infertility doesn’t go away. Pregnancy announcements still hurt, hearing others wish they didn’t have children or hearing them take their children for granted still hurts. But I hope that now we have our son here, in our arms, that those feelings may start to subside. After all, I sit here staring at this little miracle and knowing that I got our greatest wish!
 

I still know so many women struggling with infertility. I can’t express how much I wish for each and every one of them to get to experience this soon, or experience this again as some already have a child/ren.  

I’m planning to blog more. I want to record all my thoughts and feelings as I enter motherhood and as life changes massively. I know in the future we will want more children and will more than likely need to pursue fertility treatments again, putting us down this tiring and familiar road. I will want to blog about that too.

To end this post, I pose a question… what do you do when you feel like all your dreams have come true?